Once upon a time...

Not so long ago, I would have considered myself to be fairly fit. I'm not talking about Iron Man fitness levels, but my fitness was definitely much better than average. My peak of my fitness would have been two years ago. I remember going to the gym four mornings (weight training only), and running five nights a week. When I did run, I'd easily be able to run non-stop for a distance between 12-16km at a pace averaging 10km/h. I may not have had the most sculpted body, but I sure felt good about the shape I was in.

Fast forward to today. Since that brief period of being fit, I had obtained a desk job and sat around on my ass a little more than usual. I started to get a little more stressed, I got tired realy easily, and I just stopped giving a damn. My gym mornings dropped to three days a week, and I just stopped running completely. Fast food started to become more convenient and late night snacks and sweet cravings became more frequent.

Now I've gained a little extra fat around the lower half of my body and damn it is making me really self conscious. For so long I've been wanting to get rid of all this excess baggage but getting up and putting it all into action has been easier said than done. Food can be so delicious, and cardio is my most hated form of exercise ever. Both of these add up to disaster.

I have finally managed to build up the motivation to finally start working on my fitness again, but damn this is not going to be easy. I can't run non-stop like I used to (and it's going to take a lot to get up to that stage again), and hunger cravings are through the roof. It's things like this that make me want to give up so easily. I guess what makes it even more hard is that I like to see results quick, and something like this will obviously take time, so day by day it looks to me like I'm achieving nothing. But I am determined to get some results this time. I can't give up on myself yet again.

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Speaking of all this fitness and whatnot, it sucks how there is so much food out there that tastes so great, but most of the time, the better it tastes, the more calories it carries with it. Not only that, you can usually manage to eat a lot before you get full. Why oh why does everything have to be this way? Where is the enjoyment in life if you can't enjoy the pleasures of eating without any side effects. I hate how that works. Sometimes I wish I had a really fast metabolism. Nothing annoys me more than those people who can just keep eating and eating and not even gain a single kilo. They have it so easy. On the other hand, I have a metabolism that is about average, but it also can slow down quite a bit which means that if I need to burn fat, I need to either eat barely anything or exercise really intensely. That's certainly no fun then. Sometimes life just sucks.
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